Hey, I’m ian.

I organize this thing—but not because I’ve got it all figured out.

I’ve been obsessed with how to be a good man for as long as I can remember. Philosophy, spirituality, somatic psychology, fitness, integrative medicine, psychedelics, anthropology, world travel—even personal finance. Most of it was a way to master a sense of control, instead of having to feel my unprocessed pain.

Research was me-search. But I was still suffering.

I was chasing freedom by trying to be perfect. What I really needed was something deeper—something embodied, relational, and rooted. I had to find the courage to surrender to my grief, fear, and frustration. The first step was finding people who didn’t judge me while I was going through it. Heartfelt, authentic, and integrous people became my medicine.

I’ve never taken the easy path. Some people do a weekend ayahuasca retreat; I spent 18 months in isolation in the Peruvian Amazon, apprenticing in the Shipibo tradition. I earned a master’s degree in somatic therapy. I’ve sat with death. I walk with grief. Each step has stripped me down to something more honest, and that process will never come to completion.

I’m not perfect. But I’ve lived some things, and I’m here to humbly share what I can. I’m also just curious—and I want to learn from you.

IMC is a space to drop the performance, live life with a crew, and find the freedom and pleasure of giving the world your greatest gifts.